Life's hard

Back to back of getting myself into that same black hole over and over again. It's not like I wanted it to be this way, but once my trust for you are affected. It's really for sure... is very hard for me to put my trust on you again. But, if i'm trying to put my trust on you, please value it. Cox once it's broken again, I wont be turning back at you ever again. I really don't care if you're someone I love dearly or close friend. Trust is everything to me and everyone.

People say to forget about the past. But, it's not easy to forget especially it triggered your trust. Prolly it affected me badly is because I really gave my 100% trust for them. I'm that nice, naive and gullible cause I expect people to tell me 100% truths like I did.

If I had known about it way before.. I wouldn't have chose this path. But again, it helps me to grow and be more wiser with whatever I do in the future. I guess this is part of growing up too. Only the true ones will stay by your side.

"Trust takes years to build, seconds to break, and forever to repair."

Single?

Ever pondered if you deserve this love? Prolly you guys out there dreamt to have the perfect boyfriend. Well, who doesn't? If this will be your first, please don't expect too much because there's no such thing as perfect boyfriend. I myself is not perfect. Everyone do have their own flaws. In relationship, you gotta accept someone for who they are be it their good side, bad side and ugly side of them. You gotta accept your other half for everything. But that doesn't mean your other half can treat you like a fool. But do not tell him all of your concerns about his social because he will find you a burden or don't understand him. You may kinda hope that your own first relationship would last. You may be naive about this cuz it's quite rare to have someone to last with their first partners. Maybe this is just an experience for you? Well, just chill and let God do his job. It's okay to be single again if this relationship doesn't meant for you. It's not a harm to be single again. But i really hope your  relationship would last. God bless you.

I still love you. -unknown

H A P P Y ?

Happy? Happy means you're satisfied with what you're doing and also with the people around you that you trust dearly. But if once the trust has been broken for some reasons, it might be hard for you to trust that person. This is just because you're afraid of getting lied on and have that bits of not trusting him.

In order to be happy with him as a partner who has broke your trust. It's okay to give him another chance. Because he may do it due to his own reasons that you might not known yet. But that doesn't mean you have to trust every single thing he said till it's proven. Don't be naive.

If you think you can give him another chance, by all means you gotta put trust on him at least and stop bringing up the past. He knew he did the mistake but you shouldn't be bugging him with the mistakes he did. He might be irritated by you. So DONT! If you still can stop bugging him abt the past, it just mean that you dont trust him anymore. So by all means i think it's best if you and him part ways. I guess that would be better.

In relationship, you don't expect for rainbows always. Without sunshine and rain there wont be any rainbows. It's just like a rollercoaster ride. In order to last, yall gotta work things out tgt. Have an adult conversation rather thn conversation over texts. If yall managed to face all these ups and downs, it will actually make your relationship with that person even stronger. Cuz yall are not in the phase of saying i love you to each other anymore, instead you guys are learning abt each other and how to work things out if things doesn't go both you and your partner's ways.

"There would be no rainbows without sunshine and rain."

Putting the past behind you

In order to live your life happily and peacefully, all you gotta do is put the past behind you. Never let the past haunt you down and stop you from moving forward. Don't be silly and dwell with the past because it's over. No point dwelling over something that has already happened and cannot be changed; do not cry over a spilt milk. Don't talk about it anymore. You yourself who gotta stop talking and thinking about it because no one else can help you! Why you wanna make the past do this to you when it wasn't your fault in the first place? Why let the one who cause this problem live her life happily? So, just stop holding onto the past and focus with the present and the future. Good things will come to people who is patient enough to face all sorts of problem. Just believe in yourself. Give yourself some healing time and I'm sure you'll be happy as ever.

"Stop holding onto the past"

Jealousy

Haters will be hating. It's okay guys, just be proud that at least there's people who is jealous of you. Reason behind this is because... They can't be like us, they're below us or they can't have someone they wanted to be with, obviously. It sucks when he/she try to get your partner's attention and made all kinds of nonsensical stories to others. As a girl, I know some girls/boys will be quite insecure after this problem occurs. So, whenever his/her partner were to post a pic with another boy/girl and not him/her, he/she will tend to get jealous. Obviously, who wouldn't. In order to let the other party feel secure and loved, guys.. Yall should just do something that he/she will be happy. Not just physically, but show off a bit too (but not too much). You don't need any social media to tell others your story, but once in a while, you gotta show to people from your social media platforms that you're proud to have a partner like him/her etc. So at least, other girls/boys will know that you're an attached person and they won't stand a chance to be with you. It's okay if the viewers are not happy with it, as long as you and your partner are happy and fine with it. I may be wrong here, but this is just my point of view from what I've observed so far. Don't take it to hard ya. God bless all of you and your partners.

"You don't live your life to please everyone".

Sorry

Just a quick one. Sorry to all my loved people; those who matters in my life. Well... I mean we're humans so we are bound to make mistakes. Nobody's perfect, am I right? I just wanna take this opportunity to whoever read this post that I do wanna apologise sincerely for hurting any of yall without me realising it. However, thanks for staying with me no matter what happens. I'm sooo thankful to have yall in my life.

"Do i even deserve this?"

Expectations?

In life, you just gotta stop putting in too much expectations. Why is that so? High expectations might bring you a great disappointment. Well, IF you didn't meet your expectations. BUT, if you managed to meet your expectations, then that's good for you. Also, stop expecting others to do things the way you wanted it to be. It's just because they got their own way to live their life. You can't control anyone tho they said they will do it or not. Just let them make their own choices, and we'll just observe and be there for them. Therefore, try to keep your expectations as low as possible because that's the secret to happiness instead of being sad and overthinking. 

"Expect the unexpected."